I was going to return comments and post a new blog on Saturday, but a thunderstorm came on Friday afternoon and a thunder struck my modem, so it died and I just got it fixed today. I have a one-week break. The day after tomorrow will be the first day of Ramadan (the month when Muslims are fasting, etc.) and August 17 will be the independence day of Indonesia (my country)!
Today I had my math presentation. I worked with my group, and it was okay. We received some critics and apparently some of my classmates had no idea what we were trying to say. I wish they did; I felt bad if they didn’t.
I wasn’t the one who had to explain things. My jobs were to find animation or 3D graphics and made the PowerPoint slideshow. And during my group’s presentation, something tickled me. I thought they had no idea about what I wrote on the presentation. It’s difficult to explain, but long story short, they just didn’t get it. They wanted it to be A, while I already had a scheme in my mind, which was B, not A.
I’ve known that my mind is pretty different from others. I suck at explaining things, and when I already have the ideas concepted in my mind, I just can’t execute it. It’s frustrating especially when I have to make a presentation, or group presentation, and work it with other people. My ideas won’t go well with other people’s. When I think it’s good, they can’t judge because they don’t even get my ideas. And they would be like, “meh…”.
I do understand, though, that I’m not good at this, so it doesn’t really surprise me when my chairmate or friends ask other people instead of me. I’m not blaming them—it’s my weakness. I know so well that one of my friends just don’t get the way I explain things (and if you’re reading this, haha, don’t freak out, it’s my bad). Other people do know, as well. I’m not the one people come to when they ask questions about math, science, or other things. I’m not their right person. Too bad, though; I’d really like to help, but I just couldn’t.
It’s difficult, really, to suffer from this kind of thing. I’m not good at speaking, explaining… they’re not things that I’m good at. Kind of similar to my previous math blog post; I understand things in my mind, but just can’t write it down or speak it up.
And I’m being more sure about this when I discovered this test, through Skeletons MB (you should join if you haven’t!) I usually don’t rely too much on online tests or quizzes, but this one surprised me. It was accurate, and in one of the paragraphs it was described that most of the time, people won’t get me. Either they would mistake me as an arrogant, or just don’t know what the hell I’m talking about. This personality is called INTJ (Introvert, iNtuition, Thinking, Judging).
But well, I’m pretty optimistic that I’ll figure this one out. This is one of my weaknesses, but there must be a way to at least improve it a bit. Because I don’t want to live chained by my weaknesses, and fail at life because I think they will make me stop moving, when I actually have strengths that I haven’t used or haven’t discovered… yet. 
I’m lack of social skills, I have an abstract mind, but I promise I won’t let them to bring me down.
(You can tell that this is self-motivation blog, but hey!)
Anyway, I’m also proud to announce that I haven’t missed any day on my 365! I missed a day.
